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aiyo ann.. why so emo.... i felt funny last night too, when i got home... grace said something that was oh so true last night, while we were having supper, she said like, we have so many activites, so many things to do, but at the end of the day, when youre alone at home, you just feel like, empty, somewhat..something along those lines. its kinda true, run here run there in the day, when i get back home i just feel like something is missing. it doesnt have to be a guy, nor must it be money or whatever, its just something. cant put my finger on it.
i dont know why, suddenly just felt like coming online, havent been really online nowadays.. nothing much to do online.. spying on others, taking a look into other people's lives, wonder if they feel the same way. maybe we appear to be full of energy, laughter, whatnot, but when alone, i dont feel any of the energy or cheerful disposition i seem to have outside. what comes out is a display of sadness instead. maybe im going crazy, maybe im weird, or maybe im just normal, and this is what every person feels. it seems to get especially bad when its near that time of the month again... bleah.
it always seems to me like i have so much to do and so many things to accomplish, but what exactly are those things? havent found the answer to this question.. ive been asking myself this for so long, why the hell does everything seem so monotonous now. been having this inclination to stay at home more often.. havent really seen my parents in quite some time.. sigh.
i seem to do different things each day, but yet they all feel the same... like its become a routine. go out, laugh laugh laugh talking about things of absolutely no significance, come back home, stone start staring into space and listening to my music.. what the hell is missing??
